Starting fresh.

Some people think of these times as just another part of life. I think of this time as a chance to start over. High school wasn't horrible, I had my ups and downs but doesn't everyone? This whole 'college' this is just down right S C A R Y . When I think about it... The fact that I leave in seven days from tomorrow, I want to curl up in my comfy bed, in the room i've grown up in since I was born and just stay there forever. But then I think, I can't do that. College is a place where you get the chance to be who you've always wanted to be, the person that high school didn't let you be because you've grown up with those kids and once someone has formed an opinion on you, its hard to change it. College, filled with THOUSANDS of kids who HAVE NO IDEA WHO YOU ARE, is a yes scary, but fabulous thing. As I soon start this journey a thousand things run through my mind.

1. what on earth do I bring with me
2. Is my roommate going to think I'm weird if i put on a full face of make up everyday
3. Is my roommate going to think its cool I put a full face of makeup on everyday
4. DONT GAIN THE FRESHMAN 15
5. i'm going to miss my mom
6. I'm going to miss my dad
7. MY DOG!!!!!!
8. why do we have to pay 500 dollars for book when be pay 50,000 for tuition??????
9. i'm going to miss my friends
10. no I'm not
11. my friends suck
12. no i'll miss them
13. lord please don't let me get lost.
14. dinning hall food???????
15. how can i possibly balance, school (maybe ill get straight A's for once in my life) friends, and sports??? and the gym?? HOW

but as they say "you're given this life because you can handle this life" so some how I am going to be able to handle this life. i'll keep tally of my mental breakdowns since i've never lived with anyone in my life besides my parents, having a roommate could either 1. FREAK ME OUT or 2. be really good for me and teach me how to respect other peoples space, and their things, and how to stay clean... for other people... because i don't care if my room is full of clothes.

oh college... what are you going to do to me? change me? teach me? better me?
we shall find out.

august 22, 2015.